Still Kicking

I`ve barely been on my computer at all lately and I thought it was time to say something. Anything at all. Especially since the name of this blog is "Laura-Lee Was Here". The fact remains is that I have been sick all the time and when I finally get my head above water (healthwise), then Mom gets sick and she gets way worse than anything I could ever stand if I had to endure the amount of pain that she does.
Lately I feel sleepy and tired all the time. I have actually fallen asleep in the middle of one of my own sentences. I have so much going on in my head, so many things I want to say, and a comment on just about everything and yet I have not even the energy to pull out a pen and paper, let alone boot up my computer (as fast and as beautiful as it is). I couldn't even begin to tell you how far behind I am in my chores and housework. I've wanted a haircut for two months and now I feel lucky if I'm strong enough to wash it at least once a week (which usually doesn't happen that frequently). How can I feel like I'm actually contributing to society or my family or friends or my Lord? Sometimes I force myself out of bed to do the smallest thing so that I feel I have meritted the amount of oxygen I have used up during the day.
When I lay in bed just about ready to drop off to sleep I have to stop and "count my blessings". It sounds like a hokey thing to do but it seems to give me just enough strength (emotionally and mentally and physically ) to face another day.

THINGS THAT I KNOW:
1. God loves me
2. God will never abandon me
3. This life will end at some point
4. The Lord is all  powerful and all knowing.
5. Nothing can happen to me unless He gives permission first.
6. Everything I experience and endure is for my best.
... this is usually about the point where I fall asleep. So I will say good bye to you now and hopefully I have earned my oxygen for this day by letting you know that you are not alone. Others feel pain too but it doesn't have to be an end to things only a part of the path of our journey on the way to our real Home. The one that Jesus himself is preparing for us. (John 14)
P.S. Laura-Lee Was Here