I think the tension comes from the fact that people think I'm not married or have never been married because I CAN'T GET A MAN! I have made sacrifices to be single and sometime I've just said , "No". When it comes down to it, the only thing worse than being single is being married to the wrong person. That's a hell and loneliness I will never know. I've seen domestic violence and I can count on my one hand the amount of couples who had a marriage that truly lasted. So if my friends have had a marriage and divorce or several marriages and divorces ... how does that make them "ahead of me".
I made a decision a LONG time ago that I was going to do things Jesus' way or "no way". I am happy to not be married but I'm sure I'd be happy married too , if it's what Jesus has planned for me. That's the true key to happiness. It doesn't matter who you're with or where you are, just that you are faithfully following Jesus wherever he goes. I know what it means to have him in my life and I never want to be without him again. So, relax everyone. I don't mind being single. I may just become the "grooviest", "coolest" Spinster that ever lived.
I've earned my wrinkles and grey hair. I'm proud of them, because each day I get older, I also resemble my Heavenly Father more and that attracts all sorts of people. I don't need botox and I don't need to be nipped or tucked. I've got Jesus inside and I've been told I'm more beautiful now than I've ever been. I'll hand the credit over to the Lord, because he is the author of my life and the author and perfector of my faith.
